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Planned events that really come true

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 18:09:29 GMT

Quite a few events have happened since I last posted here.

I was still hanging around down under, was initially planning to return to sg by 1st week of Aug, but i did not book my flight nor did i pack either. Instead, time was wasted just waking up late, watching dvd series, surfing the net n aimlessly passing time, just waiting for the weekend whereby most of my friends/ex-colleagues were free and could spend time with me on weekends. I have pretty much settled all that i needed, sold as much rubbish as I could, i was more like a sitting dead duck, waiting for someone to call to buy some rubbish off me... Then came one weekend,at the end of August, where everyone was busy and I did absolutely NOTHING except to watch at least 4 movies a day. Just imagine, everyone else goes to work for 8 hours a day but i spend my time watching movies... after that weekend which i continuously watch several movies each day, and absolutely NOBODY called to purchase anything, I finally decided, I should permanently leave Perth in the next few days. I booked my flight on tuesday nite and flew out that friday nite.

As soon as i got to sg, i started planning again. I couldn't unpack permanently as there was too much stuff and there was too little space... i was again living off my luggage but this time my luggage was in the living room. I started looking for jobs but in vain, nothing came up. I did not get a single response from anyone. I then decided that I should consider the 20th sept 2009 date being such a nice number... I hurried off making plans and looking the possibility of making my ROM on that day. There were several things that was involved to be legally married. I was lucky that my aunty was a solemniser and could accomodate me for anytime on 20092009, eventhough she had to do 9 other couples on that very same day. I just wanted to get the paperwork done and thought maybe my parents wouldn't be interested in rocking up since it was such a hassle for my dad to travel. Then came the issue that TT had to go to the states. I got everything ready, ie paperwork and attendance at registrar office but I had to tell everyone that its on standby, pending on if TT arrived back from the states in time. He was due to fly back at midnight on the night before and any extended trip/missing his flight/flight delays (apparantly its quite common with united airlines to have delays) would have caused the entire event to not work out. I wanted to book a venue, but obviously since I was so last minute, every single place was fully booked out. I thought it was a good thing that I didn't book a venue since if it didn't happen, the restaurant would be so pissed at me that they lost opportunity for more business. Even up till the night before, I couldn't sleep at 2am as I was so worried that TT was not back from the states yet. I called/smsed and left voice msgs... but got no replies from him. My cousin wanted to come but I didn't want too many pple to come as both the families have NEVER met. I didn't want any confusion if my cousin came and my MIL/FIL thought it was my brother. After all, I had to invite my aunty (and her family) as she was the solemniser and then my grandpa.

Everything happen as planned. However, it was rather awkard as both families have not met and I did not introduce them either as my parents were late, causing the ROM ceremony to be delayed. We had to hurried off to PJ @ KeppelClub as I had made reservation for lunch. Till this day, I think both families have not been introduced... sigh... i wonder whether i should take the initiative to do something,

Planning my final moments down under

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:37:41 GMT

Here I am doing nothing. It has been a month since I am back to this place. This winter has been marvelous as this place has got central heating, I do not need to suffer from the cold as I use to. No more hiding under the covers, wrapped up like a cocoon, No more frozen cheeks, fingers and toes. Insulation + Central heating + free electricity is the best thing ever, except for the fact that I have to tolerate a few disgusting PRC housemates. When I say disgusting, I mean it. Picture this - who uses toilet paper and doesn't flush them but instead throws them into a bin which sits in the toilet for at least 2 weeks, who cooks till the rangehood is dripping of oil, who spills food while carrying it into their room and doesn't clean up the floor. Far out, I've given up in cleaning the house. My focus is now on the garden because I know nobody can dirty the garden.

I told myself that this is really not right. Everyday is just passing by like that and I am doing absolutely nothing, I have no interest in DVDs really, nor in computer games, nor anything. I think i should start to learn mandarin and start to play a computer game. this boredam is driving me mad. I should be packing up and yet I am not. What the hell am I doing. I'm not focusing on anything because there is no aim for anything. This is bad, I need to find an aim in life.

ups & downs

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 16:05:17 GMT

In life there is always ups and downs... however, we can always look on the bright side and choose the up sides of life.... no matter how bad things may be, it can always be viewed to be good... Just abt 3 weeks back, i was quite embarass but happy... Then last week.. i just found out i got retrenched.

For most pple, retrenchment is a bad, however for me, I have been waiting for a retrenchment. So I shld be happy that I got retrench. As much as it is what I want and everyone says its a blessing in disguise, but my mum thinks its a bad thing. True enough its what I want but I thought it would happen 3 months later, ie in Sept. It didn't daunt to me that it would happen so quick as we are flat out this July&August and I even struggle to find resources in August. Those poor pple left behind will be working their ass off. Oh well, now I will just have to return back to Perth and pack up my belongings. My plans were to settle in Sg and seems that fate has just made it clear it was going to happen. I was initially going to wait to be retrenched and gave myself till March 2010. But since it has happen, I don't have to wait anymore...

When I think about the day I have to go back to my office to return my laptop, wireless card and settle handover, I feel quite sad, leaving behind memories of the office, the poeple that I hang out with. Some were quite sad about me being gone. I guess its a much different feel when you're away for 6 weeks and when you're depart from the company for good.

Sigh, I still wonder whether this retrenchment is a good or bad thing.....

Marking an memorable/embarassing moment

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 05:06:40 GMT

I almost forgot to blog one of the most memorable or should I say embarassing moment... I thought I should blog it here so as to jog my memory if I do forget... Thanks to TT, it was embarassing...

I knew he had the ring, I was expecting him to pop the question over a nice romantic dinner or by the beach/park.. in fact, i was preparing myself to pretend to be surprised & shocked BUT he really caught me by surprise. He had previously mention that S'poreans would say "want to apply for flat?" would mean the same as "will you marry me?"... The day b4, he wanted to go checkout Punggol Point but there was no beach area there, ended up we went to Pasir Ris beach to sit by the beach, read the papers while enjoying yakult wif crimson grapes... I was thinking since we were going to a beach area, it was already rather suspecious but nothing happen..

So anyway, it was his dad's 60th and his sis had already suggested to go to Lei Gardens @ Chijmes. I was excited to go eat really coz it seems the food is really good there for such exorbitant price. I drove the family to the restaurant and got scolded by TT for stepping on it.. cars in asia are really weak for some reason..-the vios was weaker than my jazz eventhough its meant to be more powerful, must be due to being assembled in Thailand instead of Fully made in Japan... anyway, I decided to ignore him for the entire night for scolding me in the car...

We had a good meal, the food was fantastic, I particularly like the shark fin dish. Service was initially poor but later on picked up after the 2nd dish.. I was waiting for all the dishes before going to the toilet as I didn't like the idea of having the food sit on the table while i was away. So I went to the toilet after finishing up all my food. I took my time in the toilet so that I could buy myself more time while I continue to ignore TT for the night. After I came out from the toilet, got back to my seat, notice that everyone is pretty much finish wif their food. Then his sis said.. must use the wet tissues, its already paid for.. very ex.. cost like $S1.50 each leh.. so then I picked up my wet tissue, in nice packaging, flip the tissue around to see where it was being made.. and then his dad said to me "look on the table".. he repeated himself a few times... and i was rather surprised coz i was wondering what was on the table.. i looked all over the round table and then after quite a while, then i saw "it" right in front of me... everyone was laughing, even TT was laughing.. it was so embarassing... TT was laughing and said that i really got a shock.. i knew i was really embarassed because i could feel it on my face ... really turning red...

now come to think of it... its the wrong purpose the country encourages pple to populate... i mean if you want to get ur own flat, you have to get married quickly unless u can wait till u're 35 yo.. damn... i need to ask TT later if he's after the flat or me?...

still feel sad and unhappiness

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 16:31:20 GMT

I'm still drowned wif sorrows... from the previous blog to date.. still feel the same...

I'm serious fell that i have really aged...

and i'm impressed with my strengths, to move furnitures...

today i must focus ... focus .. focus...

drowned wif sorrows

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 16:09:53 GMT

tonite...i'm drowned with sorrows...

i am just so so upset... what the hell have i been doing for the past few years???... i work for about 3.5 years and then time just zoomed like that... n then i realised... what the hell.. i am damn freaking old...

a 28yo left over on the shelf... now i clearly rem when i was 18, how i critised those oldies that frequent the clubs..... i may end up like one of them... u never know...

Its now end of april... if nothing happens in may or june... then when july comes... there will be loads of drastic planning and changes...

life, life, life...

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 12:34:35 GMT

i'm wondering what i am doing here...

every hour just pass like that... i'm just on the internet playing games... go to work, come back, eat whatever... stay at home n rot rot rot, sleep sleep sleep... earn pathetic $$ from work... .. how am i ever going to save $$ to do lasik??

think i'm regreting now taking the unpaid leave.. for what mann... might as well sit in office do nothing n get paid...

the 1st step to the move

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 13:48:49 GMT

so i've moved, but the old house is still there... damn.... thanks to useless buyer's settlement agent.. i was asking my settlement agent how come she nvr tell me in advance.. she say she was only informed last minute... so anyway, i had to drive there to check my mails and found out that the letter box was broken, i dun understand y it can be broken... must be some idiot ?.. but i guess i have to go back to fix it... my main purpose to go there was to check that the real estate agent didn't hand over the keys already...

Then when i return, I tried to start the mazda and it wouldn't start. Damn!.. now i've got to go ask my fren for one of those portable jump starter thing... shit mann.. n then i have to drive for another 30 mins OMG.. again... the last time i drove for 45 mins... where shld i go then? hmm... burn more petrol hmm... maybe i shld drive to swan valley?.. maybe i shld ta pow milkshake & fries from mackers .. n then drive to trigg beach & enjoy the seaside?? maybe i shld offer chauferring services laa.. the beauty mazda must go quick... sigh.. or else more problems...

One more sleep

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 09:16:38 GMT

I have one more sleep in this house tonite b4 moving for good. Do i miss this place?... Yes, I do miss the house.. interior wise that is.. but exterior wise->definitely not.. With so much problems such as graffitti, spider webs, crickets, cat poos, crows, doves nests,blown leaves... The interior of the house has been very cosy that every single person that steps in says the same thing and it looks really modern, thanks to our hard efforts of painting...

As much as I can't wait to move out, when i look out of the window of my living room, I remember the days/most weekends where I spend time staring it. How boring it was.. what a way to lead a life, go to work Mon-fri and then stare at the ceiling on sat&sun... the weekends will still be boring but I intend to find something to fill my sat/sun.. most prob will be hanging at the coffeeshop/borders to read some books...
Back to packing now... looking forward for tomorrow's move...

must be strong...

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 14:32:20 GMT

i really can't believe how time files... 3 more sleeps in this house and I'm out... I've worked so hard to get it cleared... now the final thing to do is to pack.. I hate packing... I never want to move again ... I never wanna buy any more rubbish, I promise... I sit on a beach chair which is pretty much one of the remaining most comfy chairs i have left in this house... since all the stuff for shipping went out yesterday morning... I still have the beauty mazda siting in the garage for the past few weeks... just have to figure out how i am going to drive away 3 different vehicles from this house - the beauty mazda, the pathetic charade and a huge truck that I'm renting from Thrifty... I haven't really packed ... i have several boxes lying around since I have been gathering boxes but they are not filled yet.. i have so much of rubbish to throw away some more... if TT ever makes me move again alone wif his rubbish, i'll really be very extremely pissed... he is excused this trip round becoz of work... but no more next time... unless its a blardy good excuse.

I'm looking forward to moving out.. no regrets, i may miss the way the interior of this place looks as we did put a lot of efforts beautifying it... but for the past 2.5 months of staying here alone every night by myself, I have not had any good sleep as I keep waking up every single time there is any noise... be it the cat mocking me from my roof in the middle night to the crows playing wif my roof tiles and even the crickets making their music eventhough I've spend $165 on pest control... Yes, I've really been living in fear... I keep thinking someone is trying to break in thru the roof or side door... and you can't blame me for thinking such since I notice that in the period of the past 2 months, someone did move the tiles on my neighbour's roof... I'm sure as much as the cat and crows likes the roof, I highly doubt cats and crows have such strengths to move not only one piece but several pieces of those heavy roof tiles which i myself struggle to move one piece around...

Its getting cold... I hate the cold... I wanna leave this country ASAP and join TT but its so impossible.. with the economy crisis like this... every now and then I think about my Grandma, and I would cry because I wish she could see me settling down and starting my own family... but eventhough she didn't even think about me in her last few weeks b4 she passed away... i don't blame her, coz i'm female anyways..

Oh gosh, there is so much things to do... all the grandchildren were given the task to write about our memories about grandma so that we can compile a book like LKY's book... I think my smart aunty came up with that plan to keep grandpa occupied .. so that he won't feel so sad since grandma's gone...

that reminds me, i have to write a long long email to my grandpa now....