Here I am doing nothing. It has been a month since I am back to this place. This winter has been marvelous as this place has got central heating, I do not need to suffer from the cold as I use to. No more hiding under the covers, wrapped up like a cocoon, No more frozen cheeks, fingers and toes. Insulation + Central heating + free electricity is the best thing ever, except for the fact that I have to tolerate a few disgusting PRC housemates. When I say disgusting, I mean it. Picture this - who uses toilet paper and doesn't flush them but instead throws them into a bin which sits in the toilet for at least 2 weeks, who cooks till the rangehood is dripping of oil, who spills food while carrying it into their room and doesn't clean up the floor. Far out, I've given up in cleaning the house. My focus is now on the garden because I know nobody can dirty the garden.

I told myself that this is really not right. Everyday is just passing by like that and I am doing absolutely nothing, I have no interest in DVDs really, nor in computer games, nor anything. I think i should start to learn mandarin and start to play a computer game. this boredam is driving me mad. I should be packing up and yet I am not. What the hell am I doing. I'm not focusing on anything because there is no aim for anything. This is bad, I need to find an aim in life.