ups & downs

In life there is always ups and downs... however, we can always look on the bright side and choose the up sides of life....  no matter how bad things may be, it can always be viewed to be good... Just abt 3 weeks back, i was quite embarass but happy... Then last week.. i just found out i got retrenched.

For most pple, retrenchment is a bad, however for me, I have been waiting for a retrenchment. So I shld be happy that I got retrench. As much as it is what I want and everyone says its a blessing in disguise, but my mum thinks its a bad thing. True enough its what I want but I thought it would happen 3 months later, ie in Sept. It didn't daunt to me that it would happen so quick as we are flat out this July&August and I even struggle to find resources in August. Those poor pple left behind will be working their ass off. Oh well, now I will just have to return back to Perth and pack up my belongings. My plans were to settle in Sg and seems that fate has just made it clear it was going to happen. I was initially going to wait to be retrenched and gave myself till March 2010. But since it has happen, I don't have to wait anymore...

When I think about the day I have to go back to my office to return my laptop, wireless card and settle handover, I feel quite sad, leaving behind memories of the office, the poeple that I hang out with. Some were quite sad about me being gone. I guess its a much different feel when you're away for 6 weeks and when you're depart from the company for good.

Sigh, I still wonder whether this retrenchment is a good or bad thing.....

Marking an memorable/embarassing moment

I almost forgot to blog one of the most memorable or should I say embarassing moment... I thought I should blog it here so as to jog my memory if I do forget... Thanks to TT, it was embarassing...

I knew he had the ring, I was expecting him to pop the question over a nice romantic dinner or by the beach/park.. in fact, i was preparing myself to pretend to be surprised & shocked BUT he really caught me by surprise. He had previously mention that S'poreans would say "want to apply for flat?" would mean the same as "will you marry me?"... The day b4, he wanted to go checkout Punggol Point but there was no beach area there, ended up we went to Pasir Ris beach to sit by the beach, read the papers while enjoying yakult wif crimson grapes... I was thinking since we were going to a beach area, it was already rather suspecious but nothing happen..

So anyway, it was his dad's 60th and his sis had already suggested to go to Lei Gardens @ Chijmes. I was excited to go eat really coz it seems the food is really good there for such exorbitant price. I drove the family to the restaurant and got scolded by TT for stepping on it.. cars in asia are really weak for some reason..-the vios was weaker than my jazz eventhough its meant to be more powerful, must be due to being assembled in Thailand instead of Fully made in Japan... anyway, I decided to ignore him for the entire night for scolding me in the car...

We had a good meal, the food was fantastic, I particularly like the shark fin dish. Service was initially poor but later on picked up after the 2nd dish.. I was waiting for all the dishes before going to the toilet as I didn't like the idea of having the food sit on the table while i was away. So I went to the toilet after finishing up all my food. I took my time in the toilet so that I could buy myself more time while I continue to ignore TT for the night. After I came out from the toilet, got back to my seat, notice that everyone is pretty much finish wif their food. Then his sis said.. must use the wet tissues, its already paid for.. very ex.. cost like $S1.50 each leh.. so then I picked up my wet tissue, in nice packaging, flip the tissue around to see where it was being made.. and then his dad said to me "look on the table".. he repeated himself a few times... and i was rather surprised coz i was wondering what was on the table.. i looked all over the round table and then after quite a while, then i saw "it" right in front of me... everyone was laughing, even TT was laughing.. it was so embarassing... TT was laughing and said that i really got a shock.. i knew i was really embarassed because i could feel it on my face ... really turning red...

now come to think of it... its the wrong purpose the country encourages pple to populate... i mean if you want to get ur own flat, you have to get married quickly unless u can wait till u're 35 yo.. damn... i need to ask TT later if he's after the flat or me?...

still feel sad and unhappiness

I'm still drowned wif sorrows... from the previous blog to date.. still feel the same...

I'm serious fell that i have really aged...

and i'm impressed with my strengths, to move furnitures...

today i must focus ... focus .. focus...

drowned wif sorrows

tonite...i'm drowned with sorrows...

i am just so so upset... what the hell have i been doing for the past few years???... i work for about 3.5 years and then time just zoomed like that... n then i realised... what the hell.. i am damn freaking old...

a 28yo left over on the shelf... now i clearly rem when i was 18, how i critised those oldies that frequent the clubs..... i may end up like one of them... u never know...

Its now end of april... if nothing happens in may or june... then when july comes... there will be loads of drastic planning and changes...

life, life, life...

i'm wondering what i am doing here...

every hour just pass like that... i'm just on the internet playing games... go to work, come back, eat whatever... stay at home n rot rot rot, sleep sleep sleep... earn pathetic $$ from work... .. how am i ever going to save $$ to do lasik??

think i'm regreting now taking the unpaid leave.. for what mann... might as well sit in office do nothing n get paid...